Surfing Emotional Intensity

Here we are on the eve of the Summer Solstice - my cheeks are burning with fire and I've had waves of strong emotion crashing through me since last Thursday. They say the Solstice energies are felt 7 days before and 7 days afterwards, so it seems my timing is perfect!

The first thing I have to say about really strong emotions is that it is very easy to be fully present in them. Have you ever noticed in the heat of the moment you're not worrying about what every one will think of you or what will happen next, you're just completely in it. That's how I know these are intense energies, they have demanded my complete and full attention!!

I am, generally speaking, a calm and even-keeled person so it's fascinating (and somewhat uncomfortable) for me to experience these unstoppable waves coursing through me. Although I have to say my in built filters don't always allow the emotions to break without a little encouragement. I feel the general swell of emotion building and I start to feel what I can only describe as 'funky' for no apparent reason. It's such an intense and unsettling feeling that it sends me scurrying to pad and pen for the magic of automatic writing and then before I know it....    surf's up and I'm riding the wave! Whohooo!!!

The intensity of the emotions this last week has literally taken me aback - it's been a choppy week with anger and self pity riding high. As a high-empathy often times I can't tell if the emotion is mine or if it is originating somewhere else, and to a large extent it matters not - this is work to be done. So I've gone about my work with due diligence taking the necessary time and space to allow these energies to ride through me unhindered and undirected. These emotions aren't who I am nor are they in direct response to anything in my present environment, so as the waves have run their natural course I've ensured no one else was caught in the rip! What a great week of practice and opportunity for self revelation.....and we still have full moon to come ; )))

So let's not go for a wipeout, let's ride these waves together and have some fun.

Hang-loose dear friends, the sunset is Golden!!!

p.s someone has just reminded me of a youtube clip I posted at the beginning of the month that foretold of  ''superficial wobbles''...that phrase is still making me chuckle....superficial wobbles indeed!!!!

Time to look again

I have just had the realisation that my heart and mind aren't quite as open as they could be. I have been holding old beliefs that have stopped me being open to see the change, the transformation that we are indeed going through on all levels. I am realising how easy it is to see the errors, the so called wrongs, and to stay stuck in this perception, allowing old judgements to cloud my eyes from seeing what is being birthed.

'Those that have eyes to see, let them see'.

So today I make a choice, a choice to release my old judgements and to look again, to open my eyes and see. I choose to focus my thoughts and feelings on the new potential and the knowing that all is in divine order.

What sparked my realisation was latest note from Patricia Cota-Robles (eraofpeace.org). It touched me on a deep level and I was very moved by her view of the significance of the new Pope, Pope Francis.

I felt a great sense of relief and of hope. I didn't realise just how much I longed for people to have a church that they trust, that will bring through the balance of the Divine Feminine & Divine Masculine, that will help lead them into Christ Consciousness. We all need help. We all need to help each other. This is not a solo journey we move as One and the Church has a huge role to play.

The first thing the new Pope did was bow and ask for the blessing of the people, and then recite the prayers that would unite, the prayers that everybody could partake in. I had chosen not to watch or follow the new Pope, and I was wrong, that was my old belief structure closing my eyes to see. What a wonderful recognition that for we must move forward together as one, only with the blessing of the people can the Roman Catholic Church move forwards. I pray he has the blessing of his name sake St Francis and that he does indeed receive universal support for his request: 

"I Am asking all of you to help me rebuild God's church."

This year so far has thrown up many challenges, and at such a pace, with forced changes and old structures crumbling around us. Whether we like it or not we are moving forwards and it will serve us well not to cling to the old or try and analyse our way out of it, but to breathe the breath of God and to move without resistance into the new. We can all re-build God's church within us and around us.

I have a deeper realisation now of how important it is that we focus on manifesting the patterns of perfection by opening our hearts and minds. We must be the space and openness for change to manifest.

Today I choose to hold open the potential for the patterns of perfection to manifest on Earth.

Have a blessed Spring Equinox and may peace be with you,
Bari xxx

'I Am asking all of you to assume the role of protectors. We are all protectors of Creation, protectors of the Plan of God which is written in Nature. We are protectors of one another and of the environment.' Pope Francis

New growth requires vigilance 23.12.2012

I trust we are all experiencing in these days what will serve our highest good and what we are able to be present with. As powerful co-creators of our own reality I'm also sure that what is presenting itself is doing so within a framework that is acceptable to us and that mirrors our own beliefs of what these times are all about.

Personally for me recent weeks of inner focus and stillness have translated into experiences that are beyond words, beyond tears, beyond gratitude. Of this I will not try to speak. However in conceptual terms, to facilitate shared understanding, I will say I am choosing to experience this through reference to the Grail and the Light of Christ within.

Whatever your framework it is time to open ourselves to the birthing of the new consciousness. Just as Mary & Joseph kept vigil over the newly born Christ, so we too must keep vigil over the birthing Christ Consciousness within.

As with all new growth there needs to be vigilance in the beginning! I was made aware of this need when after a very quiet and harmonious period I made my first tentative steps outside last night, to attend a social engagement. Full of joy, love, and a somewhat euphoric energy I went to visit some dear friends of old to celebrate these times. What could be better I asked myself!!! But then I woke up this morning feeling odd......slightly stunned.....wondering where has it all gone? Hmmm. Am I not worthy, am I not ready to hold this new reality, am I delusional, is it all in my imagination? What happened?

I take a breath, and start to look at how I'm really feeling and search the point, the moment when I went out of myself. I decide it's like learning to ride a bike, the first tentative outing held by a supporting arm, the slightly more solid ground with the stabilizers, before finally finding the perfect balance and harmony and whoosh ….....your off flying down the road !!! This too is a learning experience, a time of nurturing the seed within, of tending what is inside.

So what did happen, what took me away from the growing truth within? My first realisation was that I quite literally took a step away from my self and a step towards another, a step from inner reference to outer reference. Theoretically nothing wrong with that.....so why didn't it feel good? It didn't feel good because it was not without intention, without desire to outcome, without agenda. It was not a movement made from the wholeness and holiness of who I am. Any move towards another to complete oneself (to receive), to be recognised or accepted comes from a place of separation. That is an old pattern, an old behaviour and suddenly I realise it's not feeling good any more.

Now, there I am, already having taken a step away from self, in a social setting. Naturally I find myself in conversation with someone I haven't met before, someone who wants to know my story, to get to know me through my story. A normal social interaction we have been familiar with for so long. They wanted to be able to define me, perhaps to understand how best to interact with me – but it felt odd, strange, uncomfortable, inappropriate even. I am not my story. I bless, thank, and acknowledge my stories, they served a valuable purpose in my life to bring me to this present moment. But I can no longer be defined and interact through my story.

So it seems I must be vigilant to not allow old patterns to take over, not least of all because they simply don't feel good any more. I must nurture the seed within, tend to this new growth. I need to ask what would feed this growth, what would nourish me at this stage. I apply the vigilance I would if I were caring for a seedling - what care it takes to nurture the seedling into a mighty Oak, grounded and strong.

As we all learn to ride the bike anew, learn to navigate the practicalities, it is with vigilance, a commitment to the truth and to tending the light within that we shall grow.

Glory Be!

A SPECIAL THANK YOU

I offer special thanks, love & gratitude to Abigail, Grace & the Healing team for all the support, nurturing and nourishment I have received from our time together. Thank you, thank you, thank you. God-bless us all.

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