The Truth will set you free?

Will it?

Who said so, and who said that they said so, and how did they know? And just what is the truth anyway and where does it originate?

Welcome to my world. It's as if the ground beneath my feet has quite simply vanished, evaporated. I just don't know what I know any more. Previously held beliefs, based on my own perception of truth, just seem to be falling away. I'm questioning where all my core beliefs came from and there is no solid ground. And that's even before getting into relative truth versus ultimate truth, and dimensional realities.

I can't even be as clear as to say 'I know nothing', because maybe I know something, or everything, or nothing!!! And does it matter anyway?

Along with this void of reliable 'truths' I also seem to have acquired a sweeping sense of disillusionment with those around professing to be in the 'know'. With so many courses and workshops and new & old modalities springing up left right and centre, and channelings and mediums and healers...and...and....and...I simply can not get excited about any of it any more. There seems to be so many words of wisdom which aren't being lived by those speaking them. So much feels to be out of integrity right now.

So with a complete disinterest in all things external, I am left contemplating this groundless world within. And who said the truth is within anyway, and what if it's not? What if that's just another convenient mass held belief to keep us moving along, all in the name of evolution. And then what is the truth of evolution......you see my thinking. I feel like I'm back to being a five year old asking...why...why...why!

I'm also wondering if this is what it feels like when duality starts to slip away, when there is no right or wrong anymore, no knowing and not knowing. We judge ourselves and others based on what we belive to be right, righteous, based on handed down wisdom we take as truth. But what happens when that all slips away, when we are not living out existing paradigms we know so well, what is the ground we walk on then?

I ask my Self what is there to do? Short of waking up inside the Matrix movie (which I would not be in the least bit surprised about), what is there to do? For now it seems I am to continue to chase after my own tail, with a smile on my face, and see where that leads me!!!

Offering Blessings from the void of my beingness, Bari xxx


'We sometimes know, and then not'. Rumi